I've noticed something shifting in me as of late. Now when I hear about friends or family that are pregnant it feels like a stab in my heart. I've been going to baby showers for years and I felt like I could separate our experience from other people's and be genuinely happy for others, but now it feels really, really hard. Of course I don't wish any misfortune on others; it's just that this has become so drawn out that I'm losing my ability to be in mommy/kid-centric circumstances. It's not that I don't want to be around parents with their kids at all, it's just events that are focused on motherhood and/or new babies.
I'm sure this is all made more difficult because of my job as a Postpartum Nurse - working with moms and their new babies everyday! Huge irony, I know. I've considered looking for different work, but it's a tough time to find work in the Bay Area, even for a nurse.
So, I'm trying to look at this as a positive sign that I'm REALLY ready for motherhood. Meanwhile, those of you newly pregnant or newly moms, I hope you'll have patience with me.
4 comments:
Bekah love,
Your feelings are totally normal. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself darlin. Know I am always 100% here for you in this process. I know how you feel.
Always remember all of this will be soooo worth it once your baby is in your arms!! This I know. This is all part of the journey.
I love you Bekah-Bug!!
xox
cork
My parents brought me this mug from New Zealand that says, "Trust the Journey." It seems so simple, but it has really helped me to get through some tough times and the emotions that come with those times. I think it might be apropos in your case as well. Trust the Journey. XOXO, Carolyn
hang in there, girl.
Appreciate your freedom!!! Go out to dinner/ camping/ dancing/ go on a date/ read a book/ take a painting class/ sleep a lot/ check your email/ run a blog/ clean the house/ take a bath/ marvel at how EASY it is to pay your bills, because soon enough, you'll be a mom too! And these days right now will be nothing but a memory. (And all those things I mentioned will be harder;)
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