Waiting...

You wonder if its ever going to happen. the process has started. and for a while it seemed like there was some momentum.

And then nothing.

I'm not just talking about our blog. I'm talking about our adoption. Since we officially got on the wait list in December, there's really been nothing to report. It's a game of hurry up and wait.

I try not to get too hung up on the wait. and in ways it's not difficult to just live life as we always have. and yet we don't want this experience to be an abstract thing. we need to feel it, to experience it. its highs and lows, ups and downs. it can be a roller coaster of emotion, but we don't feel bipolar about it. mostly pretty steady.

I suppose that's one thing that's made it difficult for us to blog. What do we write when there's nothing really to report? I (chaat here) appreciate it when my friends ask me about our adoption. My family used to ask me about adoption around the new year, but as there's been little to report since, their inquiries have lessened. and that's a mixed bag. I like to know that my friends and family are interested, and sometimes i feel frustrated that there's nothing to report.

But I guess just writing about this part of the process, the waiting, is therapeutic. And I suppose it is of interest to our circle to get a little window into our mindset.

This whole blogging thing is a new thing for us. We often don't feel like we have time, or don't know what to say. But I tell myself (and Bek) that we really don't need to say much. even just a few words about where we're at today. how we're feeling. or maybe we bide our time telling you bits of our story, in a retrospective serial novel of sorts.

So what do we do while we wait? Well, we're trying to do a bunch of things that we know will be more difficult to do once we have a child. Some of it is fun (travel, go out to eat, I hear we should see more movies in the theater), and some if it is just getting things done (preparing the house, maybe a little remodel of this or that, work). So we'll try to be better about updating this thing to keep you updated on how we're doing if nothing else.

Today we're doing just fine :-)